The young man (not the cat) is now 18 and he is my baby (youngest) child. Yes he is a young man, but as all you loving Moms know out there, they will always be your babies. He is no exception (nor is my eldest). The photo is dated so you are not seeing him with his humongous alfro (and according to him he wants to grow the biggest one he can before he graduates from high school so his mortar cap looks tiny on his head. I on the other hand tell him, just wait till you are 28 and look at the photos of yourself from now and say. "What was I thinking?!?!?!?!" he just laughed. Hey there are worst things a person can do for self identity. My identity as much as I tried to avoid the trap, was wrapped up in being 'Mom'. At 47 I started taking a good long look at that and by the time I turned 50, I pretty much got my self identity back. Or more correctly, I dusted off the mute button, and turned up the volume on ME. My husband is still learning to deal with this new found woman in the house. For the most part, he likes it, except when I get demanding on chores, and a few other nagging issues.
Christmas this year will not have presents under a tree. For one thing, there is no tree. I LOVE trees, but we could not figure where to put it that the cats would not topple over. We would need to make sure it is also tied to the ceiling (like you see tall trees done in some places or on stage for plays). We have lights around the living room near the ceiling and I graffiti all the windows with fake spray on snow. This year and into next, our present will be a new couch, once I get a large paycheck from a job I am doing, and a kitty condo for the cats. We did get some stocking stuffer though. One other Gift will be to go see
The Star Trek Experience. It will cost us about $100.00 to get the four of us in, so the going is a gift from a friend. I will blog about it, but no photos as those will not be allowed.
Then there is the nagging issue of, Where am I going? Honestly, I do not know. I am a goal type of Gal, I have goals and I am pursuing them, I am just not sure if what I am doing is going to get me what I need and want from life. I place of my own, a patch of ground to work, my studio (finally), and good or as good as I can make it, health. The health part is the one that the most under my control. That means, losing weight, serious weight. I started this blog intending to talk about my weight issues and over the years, dropped that blog and just become a commentary rambling one. So, I need to tighten up my blog writing, and get more focused than I have been on where I am going. That means, looking up from the map (check list) and seeing if, oh am I REALLY there?
I like to invite you, to come along for the ride, and maybe even share with me your side of what you find happening to you. No reason to take the journey alone. I look forward to writing for all of you for the rest of this year, and the year(s) to come.
Merry Christmas and Joyous New Years
Nancy Louise.